I mentioned in my last Friday Follow Up that because I have had so much going on, I have been missing out on walking as much as I want to–not to mention a week or so there that I was really in the doldrums, and my stupid hip problem that was making walking a literal pain–which really screws up my attempts to make my goal of walking 2000 miles. On my Portland Walkabout log page, I figured it out: after July’s poor performance, I will have to walk over 10 miles a day, EVERY day for the rest of this year.
Whoa. I’m not so sure I can accomplish that. That means I must walk for three and a half hours every day. I’m not sure how well my hip can handle that, either. I’ve still got too much weight on it, and that much walking every day without a break really hurts. A couple of days per week–not so much. My hip gets a chance to recover a bit. But every day? Ay yi.
So I’m staring at a goal that I’m realizing was set too high (well, maybe it wasn’t originally, maybe it was–I don’t know) and I’m having to face the prospect of changing that goal, something I’m loathe to do. I HATE admitting defeat (or is that de-feet?). I HATE giving up. I’m stubborn.
But is it giving up to re-evaluate goals and fix them when we realize that a goal needs adjusting? Is it better to make something more doable than to give up altogether? It still feels like giving up to me. Ugh. I’m my own harshest critic.
I recently set my 30 day goal to walk a minimum of two hours a day. I think if I had broken up my eight month goal of 2000 miles into 8 small goals, I might have had a better time of it, because I would have been able to manage those “smaller” goals more easily. I like my Thirty Day Challenges and they inspire me to work really hard. I wish I had thought of it before. It’s too late for that hindsight to help me with the overall big mileage number, but that it is helping me now–with my latest 30 day goal, it has been helping me focus enough to walk an average of 6 miles a day. That is still short of the 10 miles a day I need to make that overall goal of 2000 miles by a longshot, but it is very doable.
If I wasn’t so worried about my darn hip, I would go into overdrive and just walk four hours a day every day. I’d make that 2000 mile goal no problem. But I do need to worry about it. Killing my hip and necessitating a hip replacement surgery would be stupid. With that in mind, if I make a goal of 1500 miles to 2000 miles and give myself some flex room, it would be much more doable. I still hate changing my overall goal, but I do know my limitations physically. This way, as I lose more weight (and have less stress on my hip), I should be able to up my daily mileage output.
Ugh. Re-evaluating goals and facing truths is a painful process all around.